Desire

How many times do I have to do this?

My muscles twitch and my heart pounds...

It's hard to breathe and I can't stop thinking...

My nerves sing and my skin is consumed by a cold fire...

I just want one... One good one and everything will be okay again.

How long has it been since I got the last one? A few days? It feels like it's been years...

Just remembering how it felt makes my fingers curl into claws and bite into my palms. I was so close and I failed and now it is all I can taste. Will I ever get another chance?

The idea that I won't get it again makes me sick enough to scream...

I just wish I could shut the world off and breathe in the silence.

I just want the silence...